Begin Again…


I’ve always been a bit obsessed with this term. Always wanted to write a book with that title, but it seemed overdone, from the famous Taylor Swift song, to the new movie, and a million books in between. Still, the simplicity of those two words contain a massive amount of meaning. And endless hope. Heartache, too. But buckets of hope.

Since 2012 when The Marriage Bargain exploded, I’ve been on a pathway to success that humbles me. After all, how often does a twenty year dream in the making finally happen? I’m also a bit of a workaholic – my past is full of reasons why—so it didn’t take much to push myself to write as many books at the highest quality possible. It’s also the damn voices that never stop in my head.

But after my last novel was written, I decided to take an actual week off for everything else. Besides the never ending list of emails, family things I’ve put off, and actual cooking in my kitchen, I took a self imposed break for a change. This is quite different from the breaks I usually take, in the middle of a book where things are falling apart and I’m freaking out and forgot again how I do this and end up in my living room watching endless series of reality television on BRAVO and eating nonstop. No, this time, my vacay was planned. I’d troll the internet without guilt, watch movies, READ for pleasure, go shopping, buy shoes, and play Scrabble with my parents.

Besides the amazing books I read and loved, I watched some great movies. But one of them wrecked me. I mean, this movie, reached inside my soul and tore it out and made me examine everything about life, and love, and who I was, and the type of stories I wanted to write. The emotion I wanted to give to my readers. Yeah, sure, I had PMS but I’ve also learned in my fab middle age years that PMS is TRUTH time. In other words, if something keeps popping up during that time, it’s because emotions need to be dealt with. They’ll keep bugging you on a monthly basis until you do deal with them. So, I was pretty much ripe to go a bit deeper, and within the mess, is always the GOLD.

Anyway, I digress. The movie stars my boyfriend Adam Levine (MY boyfriend Kristen Proby, not yours) and Keira Knightley and Mark Ruffalo. Simple, brilliant, painful. It’s about passion. For music. For beauty. For meaning. For love.

The soundtrack is full of rich tones and words that haunt me. Stripped down, I cried while I watched the movie and listened to the songs on the soundtrack, and remembered those early years where emotions I felt were so raw and real, they spilled out of me. They’re still there. Just a bit more civilized and contained.

But that’s the treasure I need to tap to write a GREAT book. Not a middle of the road book, or a safe book that may have commercial success. I want to write great books. Readers deserve it. I’ll fail a lot. But if I can get a few of them that don’t fail, I’ve done my job.

By getting away from the computer, I re-tapped all those exciting things in life that make writers want to write. Talking with others rather than texting via phone. Playing board games and reading with my kids instead of the endless cycle of homework, dinner, putting them to bed, and the mechanics of life. Watching a movie for pure pleasure, open to the experience. Reading great books with no target of critiquing, blurbing, or learning. Driving in the car and listening to Taylor Swift or Rob Thomas or Maroon Five and singing loud and off key. Having lunch with my mother.
Re-stocking, and re-filling the well.

Because honestly, if we just keep writing book after book without taking that breath in between to enjoy where we are, we’re missing the good parts. The right now good parts.

It’s Nanowrimo month. I plan to write a lot and dive into the sequel of Beyond Me, called Chasing Me. I’m leading a write in at the Wallkill Library on Tuesday, November 11th at 6:30pm if anyone wants to join me for inspiration and some writing.

But today, I’m taking one more breath. I’m full of new ideas, and plans, and goals to write amazing books. I’ll get there.

With each new book we write, or challenge we face, or heartbreak we deal with, we have a chance to Begin Again. The best part? If we fail spectacularly, so what? We get to do it again. That’s a gift not to be missed.

Here’s the song that I’m obsessed with and plan to write a book that I hope to equal the lyrics.

Has there been a book or a movie or song that affected you deeply and changed the way you thought of life? Share with me!

I wish everyone a happy and fruitful November.

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Baby, It’s Cold Outside Releases!

I’m so excited for the big release day of Baby, It’s Cold Outside, an anthology with winter themed stories to keep you warm at night. I hooked up with the amazing Melody Anne, Kristen Proby, Emma Chase, and Kate Meader and each novella I can personally attest will hook you from the beginning and keep you there to the sweet end! You get FIVE stories for the price of one! Now, that’s a sale!
Searching for You takes place in the Searching series, but is a complete standalone. No one needs to have read any of the other stories – but I’m hoping you’ll get hooked and want to read Kate and Kennedy’s journeys in Searching for Someday and Searching for Perfect to prepare you before the next two releases this spring with Wolfe and then Arilyn in Searching for Beautiful and Searching for Always.

To celebrate, there’s a mass party going on at our BICO Facebook page linked here:

All of us will be stopping in throughout the day to offer prizes, share excerpts, and hang out. There’s also a big sweepstakes over at the Pocket page for a chance to win a prize pack of great gifts.

And of course, my street team always has access to the best opportunities for my thanks in helping me promote my books. If you want to join and get in on the action, click here to join The Probst Posse!


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I hope everyone had a fabulous October!

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About Blogging…

I used to love blogging.

There was something about highlighting the everyday occurrences and finding a nugget of magic within that fascinated me. Whether it was inspiration, or just a great laugh, I enjoyed figuring out the daily ups and downs and sharing my vision with my readers. It was also an important way to keep writing. With my schedule, before I began writing full time, squeezing in every precious moment on the page was key.

One of my favorite books is Writing Down the Bones by Natalie Goldberg. The book consistently reminds me writing is like an exercise. The more we practice, use it, and tone, the better our talent gets. Like a ballerina at the barre, limbering up, the more heated and flexible and focused, the better the dance.

Goldberg never specified writing always had to be about the book or the story. She stressed journals and morning pages and essays and little snippets found within the framework of life. Writing is about who we are, what we believe. It’s a tiny piece of immortality spilled onto a clean, white page.

How beautiful and joyous is that?

Now that my days are filled with page counts, deadlines, promotion, marketing, copyedits, regular edits, and a slew of other things that have nothing to do with parenting or cleaning or being a good friend or trying to exercise and do all the chores that makes up a life, I don’t blog as much.

But sometimes, within the story of my book, a thought will come. A need to embrace and write about who I am, or what I see, or share something important. This is my favorite type of blogging. I remember when my boys were little, how each day was filled with diapers and chaos and boredom and joy, and I ran to the page at night to make sense of it all. So I would laugh. So I wouldn’t forget.

I don’t need it as much as they grow up and find their own way, but writing is simply a part of who I am and will always be.
So, I stopped in the middle of my deadline to share this blog and my random thoughts with you. I’m not advertising my new book, or sharing my cutting edge trailer, or trying to hook you with a contest.

It’s just a simple reminder that writing is important.

Because it’s our story. And we shouldn’t forget or give up.

May the words be with you.

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Throwback Thursday! On Superheroes!

So, in honor of Throwback Thursday, I dusted this blog off and decided to re-run it.
This post reminds me of why I created my new book, Dante’s Fire, and even though it’s a bit different, I’m so proud of it and had a blast writing the story! It also reminds me of how fast my children are growing…how life needs to be savored and grabbed without pause. Enjoy…

My little one is obsessed with superheroes.
Personally, I think it’s pretty cool. My older son never really went through any phases intensely. He enjoyed cars for a bit, puzzles, little stuffed animals and figurines he carted around. Nothing last too long, and his interests were wide. But I’ve come to realize the superheroes aren’t going away any time soon.
What I love about my son’s current obsession is his intelligence with his questions. I must admit, I was never into superheroes, and dimly remember making fun of my poor brother with a sneer, calling him “ridiculous.” Of course, I was also the only girl on the block who detested dolls and Barbies. Give me a good book even at 5 and that’s all I needed. God, I would have been even more socially awkward if the Kindle or Nook was on the scene. But I digress.
Batman was the first. My son was fascinated with the Joker and his evil laugh, and Batman’s ability to face evil without a flinch. The Batmobile is super cool too. He demanded to know everything that Batman could and couldn’t do, including flying, exact amount of super strength, how he became Batman, and what gadgets were used in which situation. Thank God I knew a lot about Batman so a bit of brushing up was all I needed.
We moved on to Superman. Again, saw all the movies, knew about his past, so mom was well prepared. We hit Spiderman, Ironman, and the Incredible Hulk. The Fantastic Four nearly killed me – I knew nothing about it, and then McDonalds gave out little figures of The Thing and I was doomed. He collected three of them, made them utter the words “Clobber Time!” and asked me about the Thing’s past and what he did.
Enter the Internet.
I began researching superheroes. I delved into how they became who they were, and what type of power they possessed. My son was smart and asked these type of questions.
“Can the Hulk beat the Thing in a battle? Because, Mommy, you told me they both had inhuman strength and one yells ‘Hulk Smash!’ and the other yells ‘Clobber Time.”
Crap. I had no clue. Found out finally the Hulk had slightly more power than the Thing from a library book.
Then it was…
“Mommy, Kid Flash can fly so, so, so fast! But you said Superman was the faster than a speeding bullet and the ultimate in fastness. So who wins?”
Crap. Couldn’t really find the answer but all stats said Superman ruled so I went with Superman.
“Mommy, you said only Superman can really, really fly, but Batman, Spiderman, Ironman and the Hulk can fly too. ”
“Well, honey, Superman is the only one who can fly without any other costumes. Spiderman uses webs, Batman uses his cape and gadgets, Ironman uses his powerful uniform, and the Hulk jumps so high it really looks like he’s flying.”
My smug look said it all. I was such a COOL mom. I actually answered and discussed my child’s hobbies. Then..
“Ok. Mommy, what does the Silver Surfer do?”
CRAP. I went back to the computer. Silver what?
My son’s fascination got me to thinking about some important points about Superheroes. Most were regular human beings who had something terrible happen to them. They dealt with parental death, and bullying, isolation, and feeling lonely. Some important event changed who they were and they didn’t have a choice in the matter. They took their circumstances and rose above it. They received special powers but used them for good, not bad. They fight evil, but they are never done, because the bad guys keep coming back…and coming back…and coming back. They get up every morning and do the same thing and probably wonder late at night if they really made much of a difference. But they get up the next morning and do it anyway.
Pretty cool.
These are our stories. Our stories in day to day life. On television reality shows. In our books. When I am writing a new novel, my characters are the most important part of the story – the meat that holds it all together. We all have a superhero inside of us – some are just more flashy than others. Some will use it for good, and others for bad. Take your new character and delve deep. Look at the special powers that make your hero or heroine extra special. Sketch out the evil in the story – which can be internal or an actual villain. Dig below the surface. Have them make mistakes. My favorite part about superheroes are the obstacles they face, and that they all occasionally make a blunder. That makes the story so much richer.
My favorite part of reading a book is when I grasp the pages and get so frustrated with the character I want to shake him or her. Because that’s real. If they’re both right the entire book, well, I’m going to read another book.
Here’s to the heroes.

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Dante’s Fire Release Day!

It’s here!

Ah, release day. The crazy adrenalin rush of excitement, the sickness in the belly, the sweet anticipation of offering your new baby out into the world for consumption, opinion, and hopefully, satisfaction.

Dante’s Fire is based on my boys’ love and respect for superheroes. I call it contemporary romance with a twist. Some say it’s my first attempt at paranormal.

I just hope you think it’s a wonderful story.

Besides being able to purchase at Amazon, B&N, Ibooks, Kobo, and Google Play, it’s also available in print on demand and audible. Click right on the HOME tab to order in ANY format now!

As always, reviews – good or bad – are ALWAYS appreciated.

Thank you for allowing me to continue to offer you the stories of my heart.

Happy end of summer!

And now – on to the party!

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It’s Time To Meet A New Kind Of Hero…

Dante Stark has a dark secret–a legacy left to him by his father which is both a blessing and a curse. A traumatic experience as a small boy gave him special powers of healing, but it comes with a price. Destined to wander the world alone to heal others, he’s accepted his fate. Until Selina Rogers forces him to confront his deepest fears, erotic desires, and question his capacity to love.

Selina Rogers has made a name for herself at Inferno Enterprises. She’s tough, confident and prepared to succeed. She’s also built a world she believes is safe, until she’s attacked and then saved by a masked stranger. As he helps her heal physically and emotionally, she becomes fascinated by his overwhelming power and gentle touch. Determined to show Dante the love he’s been denying himself, Selina surrenders her heart, and dreams of a future with the mysterious man who completes her.

But will his dark legacy destroy them…or save them both…


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